Ruang Kosong

Hello awak.

Malam tadi dengan pagi ni kita rindu awak sangat-sangat. Kita tahu awak susah nak recover. Like I said I've been there in your shoes before. Time will heal trust me honey. But you oughtta be strong, keep pushing yourself forward.

I don't know whether you're going to read this or not. But Imma write this here anyway.

I'd be lying if I said there's no feelings left. Eight years, hun, eight long years. Tipu sungguh kalau sikit perasaan pun tak ada.

Tapi perasaan sayang, cinta, kasih tu tak bawa ke mana kalau tak ada persefahaman, ada curiga, ada perkara-perkara yang menyebabkan kita (berdua) tak selesa dengan hubungan tu.

It's hard to say this, but cinta kan tak semestinya memiliki?

Deep inside I always hope there's a better girl out there, coming from somewhere to mend your broken heart and give you an everlasting happiness. I know I'd be jealous of her for having the most wonderful man on earth, not to mention the most handsome too. But I reckon I must really be happy to see your laughter again.

Remember that big tooth of yours I really love seeing? :) I wish to see it again when you laugh some day.

So far I'm firm with what I've decided. There's too many complications in us both. Relationship should be simple, unlike ours.

I don't know how to reach you now. But I guess when the time is right, we'll be meeting again. I'm restraining myself to contact you. No matter how good it feels talking to you, if it makes you shatter I'd back down.

I miss you a lot, and I still love you.