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Why?

Why are you still with me even when you know I have feelings for someone else as well?

Because I love you so much.

Movie

The thing is I'm not a movie goer. I only watch selected movies and I only watch movie with Superman. And he lives 350 kilometres away from me. Hence I missed a lot of great movies.

Tunggu raya jelah keluar kat TV. :(

The Same Old Feeling

I can't believe after all these years, I can still have this same old feeling, but this time it's towards a totally different man.

I wasn't very much a loyal lover previously, probably I didn't even know how to love and all. And when I found the one I loved so much years back, I felt great. I had the motivation to wake up every morning just to wait for his phone calls or SMS, and my days were spent staring at his photos and counting days for our upcoming dates.

After he had called off our relationship, I kinda lost the spirit to love and be loved. I didn't have the guts to be in a serious relationship.

This mundane routine remained even until the day I met Superman. We had this very casual relationship. If he feels like calling, he would. And I didn't dare making the first stride contacting him. That went on for several months.

Then we became somehow serious. Conversations on marriage took place. We then got involved with each other's family affairs and so on. But there was no romantic feeling whatsoever. It was all casual.

Until recently. I don't hell know where all this mushy, romance come from. I miss him every second right now. I have every intention of staring at his photo every now and then. I feel like calling him just to hear his voice, or if he's asleep I'd watch the video I've taken months back.

I'm in cloud nine. And I can't believe I can still have this same old feeling, but this time it's towards a totally different man.

I love you :)

Ruang Kosong

Hello awak.

Malam tadi dengan pagi ni kita rindu awak sangat-sangat. Kita tahu awak susah nak recover. Like I said I've been there in your shoes before. Time will heal trust me honey. But you oughtta be strong, keep pushing yourself forward.

I don't know whether you're going to read this or not. But Imma write this here anyway.

I'd be lying if I said there's no feelings left. Eight years, hun, eight long years. Tipu sungguh kalau sikit perasaan pun tak ada.

Tapi perasaan sayang, cinta, kasih tu tak bawa ke mana kalau tak ada persefahaman, ada curiga, ada perkara-perkara yang menyebabkan kita (berdua) tak selesa dengan hubungan tu.

It's hard to say this, but cinta kan tak semestinya memiliki?

Deep inside I always hope there's a better girl out there, coming from somewhere to mend your broken heart and give you an everlasting happiness. I know I'd be jealous of her for having the most wonderful man on earth, not to mention the most handsome too. But I reckon I must really be happy to see your laughter again.

Remember that big tooth of yours I really love seeing? :) I wish to see it again when you laugh some day.

So far I'm firm with what I've decided. There's too many complications in us both. Relationship should be simple, unlike ours.

I don't know how to reach you now. But I guess when the time is right, we'll be meeting again. I'm restraining myself to contact you. No matter how good it feels talking to you, if it makes you shatter I'd back down.

I miss you a lot, and I still love you.

You

If you cannot handle me at my worst, you definitely don't deserve to be with me.

Mark my words.

Quote

"Sometimes we go back to people because we realize how impossible it is to live without them."

-MHAH