The Same Old Feeling

I can't believe after all these years, I can still have this same old feeling, but this time it's towards a totally different man.

I wasn't very much a loyal lover previously, probably I didn't even know how to love and all. And when I found the one I loved so much years back, I felt great. I had the motivation to wake up every morning just to wait for his phone calls or SMS, and my days were spent staring at his photos and counting days for our upcoming dates.

After he had called off our relationship, I kinda lost the spirit to love and be loved. I didn't have the guts to be in a serious relationship.

This mundane routine remained even until the day I met Superman. We had this very casual relationship. If he feels like calling, he would. And I didn't dare making the first stride contacting him. That went on for several months.

Then we became somehow serious. Conversations on marriage took place. We then got involved with each other's family affairs and so on. But there was no romantic feeling whatsoever. It was all casual.

Until recently. I don't hell know where all this mushy, romance come from. I miss him every second right now. I have every intention of staring at his photo every now and then. I feel like calling him just to hear his voice, or if he's asleep I'd watch the video I've taken months back.

I'm in cloud nine. And I can't believe I can still have this same old feeling, but this time it's towards a totally different man.

I love you :)

Kerja Tuhan

Sekarang saya nampak kenapa saya bersama Superman dan bukan Batman. Yes I still feel strongly towards Batman but love alone doesn't suffice. Yes Superman isn't as romantic and sweet as Batman but what he has is faith in me.

Sekarang I dah salah perkiraan kerana terlalu mengikut perasaan. Dan I kena buat keputusan yang rasional.

Betullah, semua yang berlaku ada hikmahnya. Tuhan tahulah kerja yang dilakukannya. Kita jangan persoalkan lagi.

Ya rabbi, ampunkan aku.

My Heartless Boyfriend

Yes boyfriend I tak macam boyfriend you, you, you dan you. Dia tak romantik langsung, doesn't know how to make me feel belonged and let alone sweet talk.

He calls me "awak" and I can only be addressed as "sayang" whenever he makes mistakes.

Yes I envy you you you dan you for having such lovable boyfriends. But one thing Superman possesses that most of your boyfriends don't is an assurance of a future together.

That is the ultimate reason I'm stuck with him for nearly a couple of years now.

*smile sighing*

Marriage

I'm beginning to lose faith in marriage. I find it to be somehow stringent, too confining and suffocating. Forget about fairy tales, dream weddings now.

Superman, on the other hand, has a different perception. He believes in everlasting relationship built on marriage institution. He believes in blessed relationship of two individuals in a legally tied knot.

I guess he needs to do a lot of convincing right now. And I can see his progress at present.

:)

Birthday Sayang

Superman: Why did you say I ruined your birthday night?

Moi: Ah, forget about last night. We both were being emotional. Especially me.

Superman: Happy birthday.

Moi: Thank you so much, sayang.

Superman: Thank you who?

Moi: Er, thank you so much, awak.

Superman: No no no. What did you say again?

Moi: Thank you so much, ayam!

Superman: Kok kokokokok!

Moi: *burst into laughter* I love you, sayang.

Superman: I love you too, cintaku.

His Boring Girlfriend

Moi: Don't you find me boring?

Superman: No, why?

Moi: Because I don't listen to music like you, nor do I enjoy going to cinemas. I'm not like many girls out there. I sit at home reading and writing and thinking.

Suoerman: Yup, you sure do. That's why I love you so much.

Moi: Really?

Superman: :)

Rambut Panjang Mayang Mengurai

Perihalnya begini.

Kalau I berambut panjang maksudnya I sedang berboyfriend at that particular time. Ini kerana I pun tak tahu mengapa nasib I mendapat boyfriend yang suka gadis mereka berambut panjang. Barangkali rambut hitam dan ikal yang beralun I yang cantik ini menjadi faktor utama mereka menyuruh I menyimpan rambut.

Tidak. I bukan tunduk pada telunjuk boyfriend, bahkan, dalam sesuatu hubungan, I akan menjadi lebih controlling dalam segenap sudut. Tapi at times kita kena compromise, mencantikkan diri kepada bakal suami (insya Allah) supaya mereka tak cari lain.

Hakikatnya I lebih gemar berambut pendek. Senang dijaga. Tak perlu fikir nak beli pengikat rambut ataupun sepit rambut. Kalau travel pula tak perlu risau rambut basah dan masam dan sebagainya.

Tapi, ada twistnya di sini. Sekiranya I dilihat berambut pendek dalam masa terdekat ini, maksudnya ada seorang gadis cantik sedang bergaduh besar dan memberontak dengan boyfriendnya.

Sekian, harap maklum.

Satu Hati Dua Lelaki

You want me to be frank? Let me frank with you now, baby.

Love? I ain't sure.

Necessity is more like it.

I have no doubt I'm in need of you both badly, spiritually, in life. You light my life and give me new dimensions of it. When one of you makes me somber, I'd turn to the other.

Back up? No, I'm pretty sure.

Complimentary is more like it.

Each of you possesses the qualities I had always wanted in a guy. One has the feature the other does not. Like I've said, it's complimentary.

Both are entirely different entities, but never fail to please me at the most crucial times.

You ever thought of hurting me? Hurting my feeling?

Go ahead and screw me.

'Cause why? 'Cause I have another one.

Again, it's not a back up plan. You guys compliment one another, in the most complicated way anyone could ever imagine!

No no no. Don't call me bit*ch.

Falling for two different men at the same time ain't bit*ch.

Afterall love is this complicated. *sigh*

My Boring Boyfriend

Superman is a real boring boyfriend. He is very serious and most of the times would act like a strict brother to me. He would decline to every invitation I made to do anything insane. And each time he'd be getting a straightforward remarks from me;

"Awak ni tak fun lah!"

He would laugh over mundane and repeated jokes like Mr. Bean's. Whenever he thinks something is funny, he would share the same, old, boring antic over and over again.

I, on the other hand am very humourous. Well, I think so. I consider my jokes are all intellectually acceptable (haha!). I'd roll my eyes upon coming across lame attempt on being funny. I hardly laugh whenever I think something isn't funny enough or isn't up to my standard. I'd smirk instead. That's mostly because I don't fake expressions, remember?

I still love my boring and serious boyfriend, nonetheless. Now I do believe that opposite attracts.